For Stress: Cooling Healing Light of Blue Meditation

My muscles have been holding on to so much tension. My mind keeps spinning in circles, like it’s chasing its own tail. I’m just really stressed in general.

If you’re in a similar place, this post might help. It includes a guided meditation; scroll down to access the Cooling Healing Light of Blue Meditation.

A few years ago when my healing journey began, my stress levels were shooting through the roof; it sometimes felt like my brain’s neurons were singeing from the heat of my out-of-control stress.

Now that I’ve had a nice, long chance to recuperate at home, I had really thought that the stress would have gone away more than it has. The stress is still so strong.

I was thinking a couple weeks ago that I didn’t think it was possible to feel so stressed while simultaneously staying at home and relaxing so often.

I thought, how can I be this stressed, if I haven’t even been doing much?

And yet there I was, a nervous wreck.

... ..

I think that through this experience, I’m learning more about the true nature of stress. It is totally possible to be stressed out in even the most relaxing environments, because stress lives inside of us. I’ve learned that I can live in a safe environment while still hosting a stressful inner environment.

If you’re in a similar boat, overwhelmed with the thought of trying to manage this stress that doesn’t seem to go away… I think it might help us to forgive the stress for being so tenacious. I spent a while beating myself up for being so stressed for no damn good reason. Now I recognize that beating myself up about it just magnifies the stress by a lot.

I’ve been finding myself at a crossroads: Do I get frustrated with myself for being so ridiculously stressed out for “no good reason,” or do I practice compassion?

Practicing compassion could look like:

Taking deep breaths (or at least trying to make my breath deeper if I’m breathing too fast - don’t force it too much) and imagining my shoulders relaxing.
Prioritizing time to relax as deeply as possible, even if it seems like I’m “relaxing” all the time. (It’s only partial relaxation if I’ve been worrying about something the whole time.)
Trying not to get frustrated when I find myself re-thinking stressful thoughts. (Getting stressed about the stress only creates more stress!)

After I started writing this, but before I recorded the meditation, the stress started building up into panic attacks. I’d been working through some very strong emotions that had been stored behind my heart, and it felt like stored panic that’d been waiting inside me was finally being released. In the heat of it all, I found it scary and overwhelming. I recorded the meditation from this space, when I was very keen on relieving my stress. I believe the recording is more potent due to the time in my life when I created it. After recording, I continued returning to the meditation for help - it really did help me feel better.

Note on October 18, 2021: I’ve since realized that part of why I still felt so stressed was because I was actually still in an environment that felt unsafe to me. It had been an environment that was so similar to how I'd grown up that I still hadn't been able to notice that it wasn’t good for me. It can take time to figure things out and realize how you really deserve to be treated. Loving friends can be so helpful with that process.

I usually feel stress as tension and pain in my body, and as a sensation of heat inside my brain. It feels like I need to be cooled off somehow. So, I created this meditation for others who are looking for similar relief during difficult times. It can also help support you in easier times, too.

Here’s a little meditation to help cool off the body, mind, and spirit. Enjoy, and feel free to download for personal use.

Transcript:

Close your eyes, and imagine looking through the point in your forehead that’s in between your eyebrows. This spot has many names, including “the third eye.” Visualize a pearly, blue, iridescent light, beginning as a tiny pinprick, appearing in this space in your forehead. Now imagine the pearly blue light growing in size.

Cooling, healing, light of blue - Fill up my mind through and through.

Keep imagining the growing light, letting it fill up more and more space in your mind’s eye. Take your time, until you’re submerged in the light.

Cooling, healing, light of blue - Fill up my mind through and through.

Cool off my brain, waters fresh - Help my nervous system rest.

Can you picture the light filling your brain? Your body? Be patient with yourself - Trust that the light is there. Let it fill you up.

Cooling, healing, light of blue - Fill up my mind through and through.

Cool off my brain, waters fresh - Help my nervous system rest.

Shining light of iridescence - Help me remember my essence.

This light is universal and always available for us to work with. This light is without limits, infinite, endless. Let it keep flowing into your mind through your third eye. Let your brain and whole body shine pearly blue.

Cooling, healing, light of blue - Fill up my mind through and through.

Cool off my brain, waters fresh - Help my nervous system rest.

Shining light of iridescence - Help me remember my essence.

If I ever feel afraid - Oh blue light, come to my aid.

Flow through me and let me see - I am you, and you are me.

For the good of all and harming none, I proclaim this healing done. Aum. Aum. Aum.

~ Claire Frances Turner